10 April 2008

Downer

I'm struggling to keep my chin up right now. Affirmations all around, "I'm good enough. I'm smart enough." But how do I convince people who sit in judgment without even knowing me?

Dear Applicant,
We're sure that you're very wonderful and everything you claim to be, but you're not going to be that here at our school. We've found dozens of more interesting and more qualified people to fill our class. Good luck in your career! (you're going to need it!)
Sincerely,
The School You Wanted to Attend

Okay, the last letter I received over the weekend was actually a wait list letter and not a rejection letter, but after my experience on this very same wait list last year, I'm not getting my hopes up. I'm damn tired of waiting.

Two suggestions that are starting to sound more and more realistic, go to school in the Caribbean and hope I can score a residency, or target the schools in the least desirable locations with the worst reputations. Another more plausible suggestion was looking into D.O. programs instead of M.D. programs, but I'm not sure that I'm open-minded enough for the other students (it isn't the general philosophy/teaching that worries me). The thing that keeps running through my mind, maybe they're right and I don't belong as a doctor at all.

2 comments:

B said...

Screw them! You are good enough, smart enough, and strong enough to withstand this. You deserve to be a doctor because you genuinely care about your patients and will consistently look out for their best interests.

Did you know that Texas A&M has a medical school? I didn't either until the fundraiser for the school told a story at a class I attended recently. I say that you move to Texas, visit Zac more often, and we can all be miserable here together.

manchmedic said...

It must be maddening - not being in your shoes I can't imagine how you feel right now, but I think I have a pretty good idea.

From my point of view, knowing you as I do, the schools that are turning you down are making a mistake in doing so.

$0.02 from me, dear friend....